accept all happiness from me

well the party went so good last night
so many people
i feel like listing some people, but then others would be left out.
but my house was filled, we all had the perfect amount to drink
Sibsi had fun (I’m sure, tho he did not want to go back!!!!!) AND he is so cool and so cute!!!!!
yeah Sibsi!!!!
i just couldn’t believe ALL these anti-folk peeps up in here (most of them had never been over).
we were all just talkin hangin out and listening to music!
so much fun!

And
i didn’t really plan this but i had a four day weekend!
can you believe it?
yes,
well
i was supposed to go to the Dr. and get a sonogram and some other procedure, (not because I’m pregnant- I haven’t even been with anyone for there be even a chance. i was getting it to make sure i have a lower risk of certain cancers, keep your fingers crossed people;)
but i had to cancel the Appointment b/c of my cycle not being in the right stage for the procedure.
so i’ll go in like three months or something
but also i found out not too long ago that i’ll most likely be able to have children (if i choose to) but it will most likely be hard to predict when it would be best to try, since my cycles are so off. (i guess that means if that’s the case i would just have to continue to try right;)
never the less that was good news….

good good good!!!!!!!!

well
I’m about to make dinner
my life is very exciting, and I’m looking forward to tomorrow after my long boring meeting!
cheers!

ooooooooooooooooooooooo!
i did get “wined and dined” last night for anyone who was wondering!
so cool, so unexpected, so fun, and so much (good) yapping!
with a philosophy/computer science boy, who owns his own business!
that’s all i feel like revealing on this space for now
but i will tell you we’re meeting again later this week and I’m looking forward to it!!!!!!!!!!

super rad!!!!!

best ever best

p.s.
i’m having a going away party for my friend Sibsi this evening and he just told me some VERY VERY good people will be over tonight!
SO MUCH FUN LIFE IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yesterday
i wrote a blog,
and right when i went to publish it
i lost the connection and of course lost what i wrote

this weekend was pretty crazy
well mary and francis were over on Fri. night
that was superfun
we had a night of wine and long conversation
and good music
i played my latest song for them
i can remember two of the important conversations really well:
1st was the awful gun conversation
mary said she was thinking seriously about buying a gun to cary for protection.
i told her that that idea (and discussion) made me nauseous and so surprised.
well, after writing about it yesterday, i feel weird (and not motivated to re-write it) but i’ll be happy to talk about it in person.
but some of the things i told her were: that i wouldn’t let her into my house with a gun. and these thoughts point directly(and obviously) to the idea that she should not longer live in the city.
but also, francis said that because i said that “i would rather be killed by someone that is trying to rob me than kill them with my own gun”, that i had no sense of self-worth. and i asked him if that means anyone like the Dalai Lama who believes to “turn the other cheek” have no sense of worth for themselves? i argue that is almost the opposite.
we also talked at length about people with autism and Temple Grandin. and cows of course. if you don’t see the connection, i would highly recommend reading Temple’s first book: Emergence: Labeled Autistic. like i recommend it to my friends, b/c they were asking these questions about how she felt about her work (she designs slaughter houses). since they didn’t know what autism was all about i recommend this book.

oh, wait
i’m in an internet cafe
and a smart/cute guy just asked me to dinner.
i’m not lying
i guess i’ll write later!!!

the best (i’m finally a woman again) betsy

i had that song stuck in my head all day (it’s andrews now i’m at home listening to my shuffle and it came on!
now is my favorite part of the day
sitting alone, i just took my shoes off
and i’m waiting for wonderful friends (Dibs, Dan Fishback, and Dashan-all boys, oh boy!) to come over for a little to have a yummy salad dinner!!!!!!!!!!
Dibs just arrived and i was pooping so he had to wait, and he knew so he kept ringing the bell!
totally rad!
gotta go and make a salad!!!!!
-rose eli

well
the other night i learned that some people have subscribed to my blog! MY blog!
crazy
well
hi: wendy, andrew, Dom, and Lippy! (also shout out to people like Earl and Dan who’ve said they read this;)
an audience of 4-6 @ least right?
well i really just don’t know what to think of that
anyway
Thurs. night was cool
didn’t have to work had no plans
so after i took a shower @ 9:30pm i took a bike ride for the exercise over the bridge to the cake shop (it only takes 20 min. super cool).

i saw some lovely folks there including but not limited to: Josh tons, Matt, bodes (of course) Jessie Murphy, and i met a cake shop regular for the first time Ketner.
had a fun time talking to K. he’s straight edge but i’ve never seen someone who is straight edge who gets so fucked up on caffeine and and no sleep. then we decided to leave at the same time so we rode over the bridge together and discovered (surprise, not) that we know a lot of the same folks (bent outta shape, ryler, lots drama w/ folks) never the less i really like meeting new people who you can just talk to easily. he said he had a good time too. now we are myspace friends.

last night i went to a scad art opening above Chelsea. and got bombed on great red wine. it was really fun. but also sort of surreal. for a couple of reasons. one of the main ones is because Jason’s (who’s opening it was) parents spied me out and yelled to him “Jason! what’s wrong with you! she is way cuter than the girl in these paintings!” also i kinda looked (in my opinion) like her a little. her name is shelli, and jason’s paintings (were beautiful) were all of her and then he included stuff like e-mails about her to her new boy friend and stuff like him saying he’d break Jason’s jaw. a little obsessive, but never the less gutsy and i was impressed.

then i went to visit my friends from Phili who were playing @ Sine-e: Lliam and ME.
that was fun to see them!

also i’d like to mention the grand time i had earlier in the week @ cake shop. i forget what night it was but i had loads of fun hanging out there and talking to dibs chris and Dan. also Abbey WAS SUPER AWESOME! i loved her set!!!

so fun with friends again!

now i’m going to go get a live mouse trap. i’m talking my bike over the bridge again! i love it!

see you soon loves!

betsy

p.s. i can’t believe i didn’t mention my shows!
they both went super well! and to this day, i still can’t figure out why nobody told me that while playing the auto harp, you could see my panties!
enjoy!

it’s been ahwile
Current mood: accomplished

i’ve been busy
away from computers and computers away from me
i’ve had a wonderful time
i just returned from vacation and things are great
i have a show tonight and on wed.

but i wanted to write about this smell i’ve found today
it’s in my house
it’s not a bad one and i’d even go as far to say it’s great
i don’t know where it’s come from
but it’s making me think things as i know it are about to change (for the better, or def. not for the bad-er;)
anyway
the reason why it’s so strange is because it reminds me of someone i was very close to um…let’s see, 8 years ago.
so weird and i’ve been smelling it all day out of no where
they say the sense of smell is the strongest of the five. it has been said that the sense is strongly connected to memory
but i’m not so much remembering the past with this someone i mentioned, but just delighted in the smell. i really like it. it’s not flowery, or like cologne, or anything manufactured, it’s like a person, but not like an oder.
and no person has been in my house (to my knowledge)

now i get to start planing my prague vacation
and, while i was home (in menands) i learned that i’ll be going to japan next summer!
can you believe it!

wish me luck tonight!
cheers!

SO MUCH FUN VACATION IS
and it’s not even half over!!!!

i told you you’d love it!

soory that there aren’t more pictures..
Current mood: quixotic

i was to busy having a GREAT TIME!
super there. baltimore that is
well i even made some cool new friends
it was really great seeing everyone
thanks friends!
see you soon
i’m off on a nother grey hound
for albany tomarrow
bye!

i love traveling
i’m on vacation, starting Sat.
i’ll be traveling to baltimore to see ruckas, fbi, conner, dan, and dina and pete.
i’ve never been to wham city.
it’ll be good. i’m trying to get some folks to go with me
anyone up for the china town bus? it’s only $15!
i just hope i don’t have to sleep on the floor 3 nights (for various reasons;)
then on wed i go to visit the folks and then to rochester for a wedding then italy valley for some major summer time nostalgia!
things have been well
practiced with the fibbers (my new band with jess s. and jo jo) those girls are seriously sooo cool to hang out with. we have a great time! Jess is so good at telling awesome stories.
practiced with jason. we have a show in late Aug.
all this time i’ve been wanting to travel and up until today i haven’t felt ready!
BUT it def. hit me today! Take Me Away !!!!!

i haven’t had internet access in a coupla that’s why i haven’t written.
and i may get to before i go but most likely not.
stay tuned for new vacation Photos!!!!
you’ll love them!!!
love b

i’m drinkin banana smoothies like they’re goin outa style!
i’m having another super awesome weekend!!!!
tonight i’m very happy to see brandon and jeff (and my crush) the most
last night i was at the cake shop and i told dan that i’m falling deeper in love with his whole band (don’t tell anyone).
i was at the kissing booth.
of course you wanna know how it went
well first i’ll say i paid $4 to kiss dan and sara on the lips
but i made about $13! but i don’t feel like writing now so
COME TO octopus and ask me about it there!
I lOve you

it’s very true
i have a great life
take for instance my breakfast experience this morning. i went to “B’s” on the park today with 5 boys i am very fond of and love dearly
they ALL made me laugh so hard that i couldn’t swallow. what a great way to start off the day. then Ian dropped me off at the thrift store i like to go to on Sat.’s to buy the romance novels there (for one of my projects) and i also bought a hat (a very special hat) that looks very very similar to my favorite hat in the world (i’ve never found one like it- my aunt knit it in the 70’s and i grew up with my mom wearing it, it’s even the same color)
last night was SUPER fun
me tammy and tom met anne in union square and we went to whole foods and hung out in union square. then while they went to chit and chew i went to the sidewalk to see one of my favorite people of late: Dan fishback. he wasn’t playing but he was there. and i saw jaymay for the first time, met (birthday) brook and saw the most wonderful set by Toby Goodshank. it’s been a while. I loved it!!!
and then while dan was walking with me to the subway, i was telling him of the awesome show i went to at glass house (that i wrote about last time) and i said bla bla bla adam green. and right then dan says “that’s funny cause he just walked by” we were so freaked out, i hadn’t seen but i turned around and said hi and we talked etc. but i’m gonna keep this part of the story short b/c he didn’t look so good. i’m sorry, but i like to write mostly positive stuff here so i won’t go into it.
but anyway, me and dan were already in really good moods and we were laughing all the way to the subway after that.
then, to brooklyn, @ 11pm
went to union pool while waiting for my friends (andrew, tom…….) and had a long chat with katie. she seems to be in a better place now that she’s trying to be more positive after she broke the nose of the girl who spit in her face.
well she left and i went out side, and who should walk up but ian eric carrie and others. i was so happy to see them. i hadn’t seen the boys since they got back.
so then my other friends come and they tried to get me on there picture phones kissing someone but it didn’t work (those are never any good to have around) and i saw some other people i haven’t seen in a long time like steven and jeremy. so fun
well we left to meet our super cool lady-friend ami visiting from england.
we went to royal oak. i danced to a few songs. and met a very nice (positive boy) but then it was boring and i got everyone to go back over to union pool. when we got there i hadn’t realized everyone had gone to a keg party so i was bummed, as it turns out the keg ran out and they came back to the bar!!!!!
then andrew and tom walked me home!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now i just woke from a nap and should be going to dinner with dan, i can’t wait.
and we are either going to Pete’s Candy store or bowery poetry club. either one should be a grand time. i can’t wait!!!

i also have to let you know that yesterday afternoon i was a little depressed that my boston plans were cancelled, but even if i didn’t see a single person for the rest of the weekend, it wouldn’t matter. i’ve had such a good time
thank you friends!